Early Morning Thinkings Part 3

So yet another of these, I should probably be asleep since I have midterms but I really just needed to get something off my chest. Right now its fair time, so about now I am in a different world of thinking. My mind has been opened up and for awhile I am either extremely sad or ridiculously happy. Usually I am the latter but at times I can be the first option. Lately its been a combination. Either way, so far I have had the opportunity to meet new people and enjoy their company. I've also been reunited with many people who I hold very dear. In one case however, I held someone too dear. Now, even though I am basically accepting of the circumstance, I feel like I have wasted my life and thoughts dreaming and hoping. For three years I dreamed and hoped and prayed for this person, but when it seemed liked the perfect time, I was lead into an inevitable doom.

I find it funny how when conflicted with emotion, ones thoughts can become so strong and set in so deep. So many people would say things like, "steal him away" or "break them up". Already I have strong principles against such practices, so either way none of those were ever an option. But that wasn't the reason that popped in my mind when I said no to this absurd advice. It was what I saw, what my heart and mind were telling me when I saw him and his love. My mind brain and the sincerest feelings of my heart were happy just to see him happy. As a human, I of course felt that tinge of jealousy, but my strong adoration for him overwhelmed such emotions and only wished for his happiness in the end. Perhaps that is why I am so calmly and smoothly excepting of it now, along with the words and teaching of Great men like the Dalai Llama and Archbishop Desmond Tutu. But its odd how the human heart works when in love. I've seen people kill, deceive, and plot i the name of it. But when I was put in it, I so simply cried my fill and took my fate in stride...  Holy shit I just realized... I pulled a fucking little mermaid D:

I would like to point out right now before I ramble any further. I am OBSESSED with mermaids, and Hans Christian Anderson is one of my favorite authors of all time. So it only makes sense why the Little Mermaid is one of my favorite stories of all time. I base some of my life principles on its lessons. But anyway, I literally while typing this just realized that I subconscious pulled a Little Mermaid. I sacrificed my happiness for his, I cared so much that I took it all internally in the end... Wow... Yet again the tragic story of my life... I dunno what to say right now so I'm just going to end it here. It seems I have some serious thinking to do...

I'm working on another "Musical Liberation Sensation" [Let's call it MLS from now on XD] and another "On The For The Real Talk?". Hopefully these will come out soon

Also, I've become a bit of a skeptic recently, or more so than usual. So I'm going to start posting random human facts on the bottom of all my post :D

Random Dumb Human Fact: "It was the custom in Ancient Rome for the men to place their right hand on their testicles when taking an oath. The modern term 'testimony' is derived from this tradition."