If it isn't obvous by now, I am a huge Anberlin fan. They are my number 1 of all time favorite band as David Sylvian is my number one of all time favorite singer. Anyway, I didn't intend for my first music segment to be a anberlin song but currently "Younglife" has been on my mind and and thoughts. How does it relate to me at the moment? [Please Click the link to read on :D]
Lately I have been thinking of the past, almost way to much for my own comfort. I guess you can say, as I had very recently come of age, I began to feel a sense of panic and responsibility weigh down on me. I was always one of the youngest, but I always had to grow up the fastest. Now in college, I feel like I've missed out on soo much. I feel like the cycle has begun again since I'll only be able to enjoy certain things when its too late. A part of the reason why is do to my own principals, and another reason is due to my choice of lifestyle [A topic I'll get further into it another time in another segement "On The For The Real Talk?"]
Okay so now for a quick overview of the "Younglife" lyrics:
Hey brother, do you remember when
We used to play outdoors
'Till the light was absorbed by the night.
Hey brother, it was an innocent time.
We used to laugh 'till we cried,
But still boys on the inside.
(I wanna do it again)
First time staying out all night.
Last time that we got away with lies.
I can hear it in the back of my mind.
Over and over again.
(I wanna do it again)
Late nights and early lights.
Never thought it would come to a goodbye.
I replay it on the back of my mind
Over and over again.
(I wanna do it again)
La la la, la la la la la
La la la la la
(I wanna do it again)
Hey lover, do you remember when
We would dance in your apartment
'Till neighbors would knock on your door?
And I remember, do you remember when
We had no money to speak of,
No where else to eat but your floor.
(I wanna do it again)
First time staying out all night.
Last time that we got away with lies.
I can hear it in the back of my mind.
Over and over again.
(I wanna do it again)
Late nights and early lights.
Never thought it would come to a goodbye.
I replay it on the back of my mind
Over and over again.
All those days gone forever.
Wonder if we're gonna ever.
See all our younglife friends that we made again.
Have we all lost connection?
The life pulls in all directions.
Memories bring us back to where we've been.
(I wanna do it again)
The first time staying out all night.
The last time that we got away with lies.
We can hear it in the back of our minds
Over and over again.
(I wanna do it again)
Late nights and early lights.
Never thought it would come to a goodbye.
We replay it in the back of our minds.
Over and over and over.
(I wanna do it again)
La la la la, la la la la la
La la la la la
(I wanna do it again)
La la la la, la la la la la
La la la la la
(I wanna do it again)
La la la la, la la la la la
La la la la la
(I wanna do it again)
La la la la, la la la la la
La la la la la
(I wanna do it again)
A charming song about growing up and looking back at the simpliest but greatest of times. It's obvious why it could easily touch ones heart. However with me I have not had brothers [at least not until later in life you know who you are ;}] or lovers so the verses, though if I were to switch it with other words or person would fit better, aren't what I so much relate to in the song. It's the Chorus and the Break which I so heartly love and deeply relate to in my current dilemma. In the short period of time in which I truly was capable of enjoying a childhood memory I was no longer a child, more of a teen. It's not to say that I didn't have some good memories as a kid, but for the most part my childhood isn't one I like to think of often. Really I hated many things in high school, but I don't regret the people I had met or some of the teachers. Plus it gave me an opportunity to go to Ren-fair and make some pretty good memories. Yet now in college, looking back at high school I want the time and experience [note not the education or work] back! I miss some of the people and the weekend events that occurred!
So lets break up the chorus and break:
"First time staying out all night.
Last time that we got away with lies.
I can hear it in the back of my mind.
I can hear it in the back of my mind.
Over and over again.
(I wanna do it again)"
I remember the first time I got to stay out. If I want to be technical it was when I went to the movies in middle school, but that was more of letting me hang out on my own. For this I'm thinking about my times in high school, random nights at the mall or even the Lan Parties of my younger years :] But I always think of the good old time when I hung out doing silly things, innocent ones [YEAH I KNOW RARE HUH!?!?!?] And I honestly miss them :/ In college you have those silly moments but it's not the same. There something that just creates a larger difference between the fun you have with your high school friends and your college friends, whether it's humor, entertainment, or just thought process.
"Late nights and early lights.
Never thought it would come to a goodbye.
I replay it on the back of my mind
Over and over again.
(I wanna do it again) "
My last days of school were some of my saddest, mind you it was followed by a semi-uneventful summer. The end of the summer was the last time I was shrouded by the essence of my youth. I had a picnic with a majority of my friends, it was a wonderful experience, and time and time again I go back and watch the video and look at the pictures because it was just that wonderful. Even the pictures from my last days of school I continuously gaze upon. The first time I ever went to Tijuana Flats, one of the BEST nachos joints I have ever had the pleasure of going to. The fun times I went to the beach at night with Andrew, Tristin and the gang during the summer. So many fun memories flood me, as I listen to these for simple words. I don't want to leave them, and its around this time a sense of panic settles in. The age transition kicks in and reality settles, it feels that much worse for one who was just beginning their childhood.
"All those days gone forever.
Wonder if we're gonna ever.
See all our younglife friends that we made again.
Have we all lost connection?
The life pulls in all directions.
Memories bring us back to where we've been.
(I wanna do it again)"
It's inevitable, we all lose friends. Whether it is due to lack of communication, a horrid fight or misunderstanding, or just a weak bond in general.There are few things I hate more than losing a friend, but one thing I have learned in my lifetime so far is the difference between the real and the fake. I will only touch on this lightly since I wish to make this a topic to an entry someday. But really have we lost connection? I joined Facebook and Myspace to keep in contact with people, and in someways it works as such. However in many other cases it proves to be the loss of communication. You'll try to contact someone only to recieve a shallow if not no answer at all. With that all you have left are the memories of that person and the occassional picture, assuming you remember their name.
So there we go, this song makes me want to go back. To live in my good memories and gain more time to lavish in my attempts at a childhood. Unfortunately that can't happen, but at least each time I hear this song, a good ol' piece of Nostalgia hits me. WONDERFUL MUSIC E> Till next time~
Just Gaby
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And specially for you! Listen to the song!
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Enjoy Anberlin "Younglife" and if you like them please do check them out and support the band!!!
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Aww Gaby this is so true... it makes me kinda sad :( but good piont though.
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